I feel myself guarding against disappointment. I've had my hopes up before, and disappointment came my way. This time I think, "I won't put my hopes in this test or this treatment... though I hope it works. But my deeper Hope (with a capital H) is in God who is ALWAYS faithful." So, if this new treatment doesn't work, I will lean on my faithful heavenly Father who is still leading us THROUGH this valley. He does not stop leading just because this next treatment isn't THE answer. But, I hope it is. He knows what he is doing. He doesn't waste any hurt.
Now, if it does provide relief... we must press on in our pursuit of truth and emotional healing. God is doing a good work that we never would have sought after if it weren't for this pain he let into our life. It drove us to seek emotional help with a truly anointed Christian psychologist. There is a better, freer, fuller, and more intimate life out there to which God wants to lead us.
We've been initiated on the journey, and must not stop till His work is complete.
David
Deuteronomy 7:2-3 "Don't forget how the LORD your God has led you through the desert for the past forty years. He wanted to find out if you were truly willing to obey him and depend on him, so he made you go hungry. Then he gave you manna... The LORD was teaching you that people need more than food to live... They need every word that the LORD has spoken."
Psalm 71:20 "Though you have me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up."
James 1:12 "God will bless you, if you don't give up when your faith is being tested. He will reward you with a glorious life, just as he rewards everyone who loves him."
Romans 8:28-29 "We know that in all things God works for good with those who love him, those whom he has called according to his purpose. Those whom God has already chosen he also set apart to become like his Son, so that the Son would be the first among many believers."
Thank you for sharing, this post is very timely given my mom's illness. I do struggle with just how to pray--do I pray with hope and confidence that God will do as I wish (heal my mom) because I know He can do it, or do I pray that He will continue to lead us and be with us, whatever the outcome. I suppose I conclude, as you do, that God is working through this difficult time, and the most important thing is that He will be with us, drawing us ever closer to Him. Thanks for sharing the verses, too--much appreciated!
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