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I sense it...

Impending doom. I try to hold back profanity, but in my head... I have failed. It doesn't make sense to me... Well, I can twist it hard enough that I seems logical, though I have no experience of it... I've heard none others proclaim this either. So I doubt it probable. Yet here I am, bewildered, anxious, scared, and "waiting for it". dngilb ps. i know this was ambiguous...

Alzheimer's... And the demented families who torture them.

Dear future children, When I no longer am able to recognize you... Please direct my healthcare to focus on relief of suffering, and do not transfer me to the hospital when I get sick. If the nursing home doc can't fix me... It's my time to die. Yours truly, David. Non-medical people view Alzheimer's differently than most healthcare personel... Yet, I think most healthcare personel in the USA still treat the severly demented in the wrong way. A 2005 study showed that 71% of people with advanced dementia DO NOT survive past 6 months from the time they require a memory unit at a nursing home... Why then are they repeatedly admitted to the hospital where their dementia predisposes them to increased agitation often requiring sitters or restraints so they don't rip their bladder catheter out with the balloon inflated causing urethral trauma... Or high doses of anti-psychotic medications so they don't run down the hall and out the building to fall and break a hip... When

Birth control.

My sweet baby loving wife was wanting to get pregnant in about a year... We just took a 5 day vacation with her sister and our brother- in-law and our cute cute cute 19month old nephew Bo. We definitely had a great time, and definitely love Bo!!! He is so great, but a NONSTOP handful!!! Vanessa now says "three years!" I'm okay with that. Just a few more years of dates and a few trips overseas... I hope to have a few "less stressful" years of fun since the past year was the most difficult/ stressful year of my life. Then we will "get down to business". ;-) David

Travel Bug.

I was just thinking about where I've been this year. Our first trip was Austin. Our next trip was a short getaway to a secluded cabin in southeastern Oklahoma. We then headed to Dallas a month later. A month later we flew to Orange county California and spent 3 days, then drove out to palm springs in the desert. We then took it easy for several months before we took a road trip through Memphis on our way to Atlanta for a concert by one of mg favorite bands, "Elbow". Another few months went by and we flew out to West Virginia to visit a slew of relatives on Vanessa's side of the family, most of whom I've never met. Thats where i am right now actually... We have plans to go to Eureka Springs next month and are working on plans for San Diego in December. That makes for a total of eight vacations this year, not to mention around ten or so trips to OKC. It's actually getting to the poin that I wish we didn't buy a house. I think I'd r

Grandfather's funeral

Yesterday was my grandfather's funeral. I cried, but I felt less sadness and more love and admiration than anything. He was a special man, and he did some prett amazing things for his church, family, community and friends. Here are a few stories to explain. Story 1. When I arrived at Tulsa for residency, one of the OU internal medicine attendings asked me if L.N. Was my grandfather. After I said "yes"... He had focus and intensity in his eyes as he shared with me what a great man my grandfather is and how important he was to his family. My grandfather had created a job for this guy's dad during some tough times so that he could provide for his family... Then, when he saw great potential in this gentleman, he offered to pay tuition at SNU for undergrad and later a master's program. This gentleman's two sons grew up to do some pretty great things with opportunities they may not have had if my grandfather had not heeded the call of the holy spir

My grandfather's obituary.

Dr. Leon (L.N.) Nelson Gilbert, Jr., age 91, went to be with our Lord and Savior early Sunday morning, Oct. 11, 2009. Family and friends were by his side through the week until his passing. Leon is remembered as a wonderful, loving husband, father, and grandfather, a special friend, a caring and beloved family physician, and a visionary servant-leader in the Bethany community and the State of Oklahoma. He also served in various capacities as a member of Bethany First Church of the Nazarene. We grieve our great loss and rejoice in his eternal gain. Leon was born to Leon Nelson Gilbert, Sr. and Alice Level Gilbert in Elmer (near Altus) Oklahoma, on May 3, 1918. He later moved to Norman to complete high school and met Geraldine Ella Shobert, whom he married, December 23, 1938. After 65 years of marriage, Geraldine passed away on January 31, 2004. They lived in Norman while Leon completed his BA in sociology at OU. After moving to Tulsa, Leon worked with the WPA for two years, placing peop

The Conduit - A Love Letter.

Tonight, I listened to Sigur Ros as I took a walked thru the night's darkness... The cool crispness of fall's air upon my face, and the breeze running its fingers through my hair. The visions of trees swaying in the breeze, the very breath of God upon me. Though life has been difficult... painful... and God, has seemed so silent and distant, at times... Not tonight! Nothing else I've ever heard has been so emotive. The music of Sigur Ros IS a gift from God!!! And tonight, He delivered the gift straight to me. As I walked through the night, tears started rolling down my cheeks. I could see God everywhere I looked. I could feel Him... and I could feel his love pouring out on me. Over the past 4-5 years, the music of Sigur Ros has been a conduit to the heart of God. It pierces my heart. I can't help but cry. Tonight, life wasn't daily tasks... or pain... or feelings of longing. Tonight, life was an opening of the eyes to the spiritual journey to the city of eve