Sometimes I reflect. I think, “man, if I could have known then what I know now.” You know? I have this idea that, in my past, life seemed so stressful and uncertain. I was always wresting with “what should I do?!”
If I could go back, from the “right here and now” back to those older days, I could have said, “dude... relax! It’s going to work out. You don’t have to stress over all those things.”
Yet, here I am today. Feeling lost. Feeing like I’m trying to figure it all out. “What do I want? Where do I want to go? What should I do? WHAT next?!”
But isn’t that sort of how I felt in the past. You know, the past where I wished I could go back in time and tell my past self to relax?
Why am I still doing it? Have I not learned? DUDE, RELAX!
But how can you shape your life if you aren’t wrestling with all of those questions? Won’t you just end up in a dead end? But maybe ending up where the currents in the river of life takes you is not a bad thing? Maybe it’s the river of contentment and happiness? Do you have to struggle and force change to be happy?
I guess some find themselves in bad situations and change is life saving. But that’s not me. My life has some solid great things in it. Nothing notably bad or toxic. Why should I be discontented and trying to make change? Why can I not simply “relax” and savor these blessings and be content?