The last time I was this sick was in the 1990's. it gave me increased sympathy and empathy for my dear wife who endured so much or the last 4 years. Bless her heart. My illness also highlighted my difficulty trusting my care to other physicians. I am quick to admit my lack of specialty when things fall outside of my expertise, but on issues I do know about I have a hard time trusting others. The situation also made me hate how cumbersome the medical institution is. I probably should have had a test... But it would have taken literally all day to get a C.diff checked and results back. And since I was going downhill quickly and didn't want to end up getting so ill that I needed admission... which i believe would have happened... So, I treated myself. We had some antibiotics leftover for C.diff and I took them. No lab tests. Just my clinical judgement based on the course of my illness. I had a quick and dramatic response. Thank goodness for Flagyl, because I was going downhill