From a very hard and painful day, I wrote out my feelings... my feelings are turned into a " 911 Prayer " It feels like our lives are over. God, maybe you should just take us while we sleep… because it feels like he won’t ever make the suffering stop. I am helpless. God, you have beaten me. I have no power or control over anything. Have you taken my life away.? How can I have joy????? There is just so much emotional pain. God, as much pain as I am in, I know you are real, I will not turn my back on you... or my wife. But, what od you want from me? with me? will you ever restore me? will you ever restore her? I feel so sad. hopless. angry. envious of those who are not suffering. Am I just supposed to say, “fine… God. I’m helpless. have your way with me. Do whatever you want, because I don’t have the power to stop my wife’s suffering, or my suffering. Do what you want with me. Will you make me suffer more? kill me? never let me experience ple