DNGILB: Trust me, I'm a doctor.

Well, its been a while since I've written... busy busy busy... but tonight's call has given me moments of free time to relax, including a trip to starbuck's across the street, and with such beautiful weather, I'm so lucky. Now I sit, under flickering flourescents, listening to the shoegaze drone of "Bethany Curve" every bit as relaxing as a nice dose of zolpidem. what shall I muse on tonight? I've been thinking alot on mid-life crises. Who has them?  I think I'm the sort that would have one. Even at 27, I still find myself wondering, "Is this what I want my life to be like?" I don't envision a life full of work, with only moments of fellowship. This will be temporary. I am applying for ophthalmology again, though with less enthusiasm. In part, because no matter how much I struggle for something, the only way it will happen is if God's will includes it. Isn't that right? I struggled hard for ophtho once, and I didn't get i

Just a little pic from on top of Mt. Evans. If you've never made the drive, its quite scary. There were spots on the road where it turned real sharp, and since there are no barriers, it looks like you're going to drive off the side of the mountain, plumiting to your death. It wasn't as scary when you have your hands on the wheel... but for the passenger, Vanessa, it wasn't a very comforting trip. It reminded me of when my family took vacations to colorado, and my dad would freak all of us out as we drove up tretcherous roads in our big van. This feeling of safety when in control, is what drives alot of us to hold back things from God. But who better to be in control of our lives than someone who is both omnipotent and omniscient and always loving. Dngilb MD