DNGILB: Trust me, I'm a doctor.

Well, as of late, I've been having people ask how I am doing concerning my new career path... meaning how are you doing after being rejected from ophthalmology again... to answer, I guess I'd have to say that I'm doing quite well. I needed some grieving time to say good bye to the imagined life as an ophthalmologist and some more time to start imaging what it would like to be a hospitalist. It has helped immensely that this month I was on a 3 intern ward team. It was seriously like a vacation! Yes, I still had call q5, but I got at least 2 hours of sleep every night, I had 5 days off, and numerous days (like today) where I was done by 1pm. SO!! I'm refreshed... none of my patients have died (yet), and I'm feeling more positive about the thought of being an internal medicine hospitalist. I've also been spending time imagining what it will be like to have 26 weeks off a year and traveling the world with my wife. (no not married yet, not engaged, but I'm excite

For those who have been talking to me this past month, you know that I've been a bit stressed out. Well, after a week on a ward team with three interns and today off work... I finally remember what it feels like to be me. The weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I now feel thankfulness in my heart for where I am and for where I am going. I had the chance to listen to some great music (efterklang), read medical literature over coffee at a coffee shop, and hit range balls on a beautiful day. I remember what it felt like to be me again. I love where I am. I love where I'm going. I love who I'm going there with, and I am at peace. David MD

Some of the greatest things a woman can do for her man is to believe in him, affirm him, and encourage him. During this past January when I was being stressed from multiple angles by my life in medicine (i.e. being surrounded with death in the ICU and being rejected from my dream career as an eye surgeon) I found out how wonderful it is to be with a woman who truly loves me for me, believes in me, encourages and affirms me... what a blessing! I tried to imagine what it would have been like to go through that month without Vanessa. It would have been empty, desolate, and lonely. I felt immensely loved by our heavenly Father for bringing the two of us together and putting so much love in Van's heart for me. Thank you Van, Thank you Abba Father. David MD