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Answers of prayer... NOT coincidence!

So, as most of you know, my sweet wife has been suffering from a chronic and somewhat mysterious illness for more than two years. It can probably be summed up as eosinophilic colitis leading to a tragically robust immunologic response to a C.diff infection with multiple relapses and after a SEVERE case of colitis requiring 2 weeks in the hospital... she is left with the most insane IBS ever. IBS that has incapacitated her for the most part, tremendous pain and nausea. We pray desperately for healing from this. All that medicine has to offer hasn't been great thus far. We still work with all of her docs trying to make improvements. This is truly the hardest thing I've ever been through, and I'm not even the one who has the illness. I can't imagine what it must be like to actually be the one going through it. Recently, God has started moving! Things are happening, and the instances are too frequent and too "divine" to just be coincidences. I have really felt th

Drowning for lack of focus.

Spiritual awakening. A removal of the wall of interfereance between the divine and my heart. That's how I think of it... A veil was lifted. Lifted by obedienced of sin confessed. Sin dragged into the light kicking and screaming... Threatening me even! I was lifted also by feasting on the word of God. Then, all that seemed to have been gained... just dropped away... in 24 short little hours. What happened?! "what am I doing wrong?! I screamed out as I walked out in the freezing cold night air. God answered my pain. I took my eyes off of Jesus! My life, in 24 hours, had become all about me. What "I" want. What do "I"; need to do to fix my situation? You know, "since God wasn't doing anything." But all the "me" focus did was cause more pain. I was trying to walk on water, Jesus invited me afterall, but I took my eyes off of him. I instantly plunged into the icy waters of pain. So what do I need to do? I need to keep myself focused on J