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Discontentment?

Not very long ago, I felt completely content. But lately, Vanessa hasn't been feeling good. More abdominal pain, still not sure what is wrong exactly. But my world feels like it is slipping away. As her health pendulum swings back towards the bad. Is my contentment that dependent on life circumstances? Shouldn't I be content in my relationship with God... shouldn't that be enough? I'm struggling to find that right now. But I think He wants to accomplish that in me. dngilb md

Contentment.

I have been feeling so content lately. Life is just great! But I still have $5000 of medical debt, my wife still has some mystery diagnosis (though does seem to be improved lately), and I drive a 16 year old car without an air conditioner. Shouldn't that be plenty to cause discontentment? That is what Satan wants me to feel. So why does life feel so amazing right now? I think to a substantial degree the contentment is perspective... Vanessa had been so ill, that now that we have only a mild degree of illness, I see how precious life and health are... every smile and moment together without pain is a HUGE blessing! We were able to go on a vacation and just enjoy things and each other... again, since much of this was absent for so long, we can see just how truly precious these things are. What's amazing to me now, is how so many people have their health and family and are so miserable and have no joy. God has already given you all you need to be content! So shut up ab