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Isaiah

No, I'm not talking about Isaiah the barista at Double Shot... I am talking about Isaiah chapter 43. An old friend from college whom I haven't seen in at least 8 years read my previous blog and sent me an encouraging email and referenced a scripture in Isaiah 43. Truth is I had been hurting. Life has been painful. I felt hopeless and lost with my wife suffering a medical condition that her docs (and I) haven't quite pinned down. (granted they have gotten her past several serious conditions, but the layers to her health issues have been many.) Anyways... I was thinking...

I thought back to a friend... Okay, it is partially about Isaiah the barista. He had told me how he would get home from work and spend 4 hours in prayer and scripture and go to bed... he got more of God, and God delivered him to where he needed to be. I thought about my friend Tyler... how he's say, "I want more Him [Jesus]" I realized I had been praying during my trial, but I hadn't been truly seeking "more of God in me". I needed to read his word. So, I thought... I'll see what Isaiah 43 has to offer, Kyle wanted me to read one verse, maybe the rest is good.

Tears were pouring down my face by the time I finished the chapter. It spoke directly to my heart. It was convicting, comforting, reassuring, awe inspiring. God is mighty... and he is working to build something new in me that couldn't be built unless there was suffering. He is here with me, and I am not afraid. I do need more of Him... more of His love to fill me to help me love Vanessa the way she needs to be loved during this long and painful valley. God, I want you! Fill me up!

dngilb


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