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Facebook envy... and the real life cover-up.

Facebook. do people really put their whole life on there? I know I don't. I avoid sharing the pain and suffering that I go through... that my wife goes through. I use it to record out happy times. People see my photos of vacations, us smiling, doing fun things... they don't see 3 hours later when my wife is hurting or vomiting. Facebook knows nothing about the inner turmoil, anxiousness, and hopelessness that I frequently feel. Do people look at my Facebook page and think, "Man, David's living the life!!" If so they shouldn't. My life is a battle. A battle against inner demons and external afflictions. Facebook is just a cover-up. I cover it up because I get tired of people asking me how things are going. If they know things are rough, they ask more... I lie more... or I give very vague answers such as "Oh, up and down." There are people that I don't mind them asking me how things are going. I do have those who I am not afraid to communicate intimately with, but they are few.

Do you look at Facebook and feel like someone else's life is better than your own? Don't. Facebook is just a cover up. Maybe I should be a pioneer in honesty... and put everything out there.

dngilb

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