So, as most of you know, my sweet wife has been suffering from a chronic and somewhat mysterious illness for more than two years. It can probably be summed up as eosinophilic colitis leading to a tragically robust immunologic response to a C.diff infection with multiple relapses and after a SEVERE case of colitis requiring 2 weeks in the hospital... she is left with the most insane IBS ever. IBS that has incapacitated her for the most part, tremendous pain and nausea. We pray desperately for healing from this. All that medicine has to offer hasn't been great thus far. We still work with all of her docs trying to make improvements. This is truly the hardest thing I've ever been through, and I'm not even the one who has the illness. I can't imagine what it must be like to actually be the one going through it.
Recently, God has started moving! Things are happening, and the instances are too frequent and too "divine" to just be coincidences. I have really felt that God does plan on healing my wife. At times Vanessa can believe it too, but her physical pain makes it hard to believe at times... "If he's going to heal me, why doesn't he just do it? I don't think he's ever going to heal me."
It is so hard to wait! I can't see what good could be accomplished from waiting any longer to heal my wife. I can see good that has come from this trial. My love has been purified for her. My love for God has been purified. I know I am dependent on him for my very breath. My faith is growing. So he calls us to "worry about nothing" and to trust him in everything. But its so hard to hang on and FEEL that. So, every once in awhile he throws us a bone.
I woke up at 2:30am this morning. Fairly awake. I ended up spending time in God's word before going back to sleep. Then today, my partner at work, Justin, told me that God woke him up at 2:30 am and told him to give me Habakkuk 2:3. He didn't remember what Habakkuk 2:3 said, but once he read it... he was in awe... then he told me and I was just "WOW!" tears welling up in my eyes, wow! Justin later said... Okay, I'm never questioning timing again. If its 2am... you're getting a text!
Now mind you that we're praying for healing... Habakkuk 2:3 "At the time I have decided, my words will come true. You can trust what I say about the future. It may take a long time, but keep on waiting--it will happen!"
AMAZING.
david
Recently, God has started moving! Things are happening, and the instances are too frequent and too "divine" to just be coincidences. I have really felt that God does plan on healing my wife. At times Vanessa can believe it too, but her physical pain makes it hard to believe at times... "If he's going to heal me, why doesn't he just do it? I don't think he's ever going to heal me."
It is so hard to wait! I can't see what good could be accomplished from waiting any longer to heal my wife. I can see good that has come from this trial. My love has been purified for her. My love for God has been purified. I know I am dependent on him for my very breath. My faith is growing. So he calls us to "worry about nothing" and to trust him in everything. But its so hard to hang on and FEEL that. So, every once in awhile he throws us a bone.
I woke up at 2:30am this morning. Fairly awake. I ended up spending time in God's word before going back to sleep. Then today, my partner at work, Justin, told me that God woke him up at 2:30 am and told him to give me Habakkuk 2:3. He didn't remember what Habakkuk 2:3 said, but once he read it... he was in awe... then he told me and I was just "WOW!" tears welling up in my eyes, wow! Justin later said... Okay, I'm never questioning timing again. If its 2am... you're getting a text!
Now mind you that we're praying for healing... Habakkuk 2:3 "At the time I have decided, my words will come true. You can trust what I say about the future. It may take a long time, but keep on waiting--it will happen!"
AMAZING.
david
This is awesome man! I have seen this happen so many times it's pretty cool..
ReplyDeleteHang in there!
Tim