I wonder if its really possible to be your true self when you're single and in your twenties?
I thought I was my true self at the time, but hindsight makes me second guess. The reason I second guess is that some of the things I used to enjoy doing are no longer nearly as enjoyable. For example, I used to really thrive on going out late at night and seeing bands play at small venues. It's still kind of fun, but I'd honestly rather have some good sleep. At first it appears that I'm just getting old. But when I think about why I found it enjoyable before is likely influenced by pride.
In my twenties, I was single. And when you're single, you want to be feel "cool." You want to be perceived as cool. This makes you more marketable to interesting females. So, going out late at night to see obscure bands is one of the things that made me "cool." Was I really being true to myself or was I trying to be something a little different to impress others?
"While you guys were asleep last night, I drove 200 miles to see my favorite band from Denmark and got back home at 5am and still made it to my medical school anatomy lab the next day." Did I really enjoy it that much, or did it just make me feel like I was cool and desirable?
Some of the enjoyment factor may have been about me establishing my freedom and independence. The aforementioned scenario would never happen while I was in my teens, but in my twenties I was exerting my freedom. "I want to do this crazy thing... and, I will."
Anyhow, now... I feel like I am less susceptible to caring about what others may think of me, and am a little more interested in pursuing things that make the true me feel happy or fulfilled.
Let's be our true selves today. Let us not worry about what others may think.
David
I thought I was my true self at the time, but hindsight makes me second guess. The reason I second guess is that some of the things I used to enjoy doing are no longer nearly as enjoyable. For example, I used to really thrive on going out late at night and seeing bands play at small venues. It's still kind of fun, but I'd honestly rather have some good sleep. At first it appears that I'm just getting old. But when I think about why I found it enjoyable before is likely influenced by pride.
In my twenties, I was single. And when you're single, you want to be feel "cool." You want to be perceived as cool. This makes you more marketable to interesting females. So, going out late at night to see obscure bands is one of the things that made me "cool." Was I really being true to myself or was I trying to be something a little different to impress others?
"While you guys were asleep last night, I drove 200 miles to see my favorite band from Denmark and got back home at 5am and still made it to my medical school anatomy lab the next day." Did I really enjoy it that much, or did it just make me feel like I was cool and desirable?
Some of the enjoyment factor may have been about me establishing my freedom and independence. The aforementioned scenario would never happen while I was in my teens, but in my twenties I was exerting my freedom. "I want to do this crazy thing... and, I will."
Anyhow, now... I feel like I am less susceptible to caring about what others may think of me, and am a little more interested in pursuing things that make the true me feel happy or fulfilled.
Let's be our true selves today. Let us not worry about what others may think.
David
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