Lost and Found.
Today, I feel as if I found myself. I didn't even know that i was lost. I don't know what happened. It all started this morning. I didn't have to go into work until 10:30. This allowed me to start my day at Double Shot Coffee doing some medical reading, listening to good music and drinking good coffee all by myself. Maybe it was just much needed alone time. Maybe it was the beautiful weather. Perhaps it was the introspective music in my headphones... Either way, I felt connected to emotions and thought patterns that have been absent for much time. I liked it. I wanted more of it... How do I connect with myself? Maybe I need more solitude... Maybe I need to blog more... Maybe I need to listen to more music... I think I should kill my TV. I think I need to create more. I think I need to travel to the mountains and be in silence. Does anyone else ever feel this way???
David MD
ADDENDUM: Lost and Found Update
So, initially I was thinking that I needed more time by myself, or doing things that I like to do... perhaps I had neglected myself... I knew I wanted my wife to feel that I put her needs first. I sort of felt bad, guilty, that I had felt in such need of “time away” from her... but I was really feeling that I needed some "me time"... I spent some time in prayer just asking God to help me to know what to do with these feelings. Then almost as if magically out of no where, I just became extremely excited to see my wife! I wasn't focused on myself any longer. I just wanted to express my love to her and let her know that she is my treasure! When she finally got home from work, I was just giddy. I picked her way up in the air and squeezed her and kissed her, and told her everything wonderful about her and how much I love her. We had a cheap date night and just had a wonderful time... We even took a walk and prayed aloud to God. It was one of the best evenings in the past month. I love my wife!
David
Today, I feel as if I found myself. I didn't even know that i was lost. I don't know what happened. It all started this morning. I didn't have to go into work until 10:30. This allowed me to start my day at Double Shot Coffee doing some medical reading, listening to good music and drinking good coffee all by myself. Maybe it was just much needed alone time. Maybe it was the beautiful weather. Perhaps it was the introspective music in my headphones... Either way, I felt connected to emotions and thought patterns that have been absent for much time. I liked it. I wanted more of it... How do I connect with myself? Maybe I need more solitude... Maybe I need to blog more... Maybe I need to listen to more music... I think I should kill my TV. I think I need to create more. I think I need to travel to the mountains and be in silence. Does anyone else ever feel this way???
David MD
ADDENDUM: Lost and Found Update
So, initially I was thinking that I needed more time by myself, or doing things that I like to do... perhaps I had neglected myself... I knew I wanted my wife to feel that I put her needs first. I sort of felt bad, guilty, that I had felt in such need of “time away” from her... but I was really feeling that I needed some "me time"... I spent some time in prayer just asking God to help me to know what to do with these feelings. Then almost as if magically out of no where, I just became extremely excited to see my wife! I wasn't focused on myself any longer. I just wanted to express my love to her and let her know that she is my treasure! When she finally got home from work, I was just giddy. I picked her way up in the air and squeezed her and kissed her, and told her everything wonderful about her and how much I love her. We had a cheap date night and just had a wonderful time... We even took a walk and prayed aloud to God. It was one of the best evenings in the past month. I love my wife!
David
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