So, dear readers... or more likely, "reader" in the singular,
Last Christmas I wrote a blog about "why I feel sad at Christmas"... (please reference it if this is news to you). So, this Christmas... "How'd things go?" you ask. Well, it seems that this year I had more to be sad about, but ended up feeling "less sad" than the year previous. What did I have more to be sad about? There were family relational strains, father in the hospital, my wife having health problems even on Christmas eve. I had plenty to be sad about. But there was less gift exchanging to require "faking a smile". There was a little less gluttony. I gave presents to the homeless (this topic needs a blog of its own). There were less expectations, less responsibility... more expectancy, more freedom, more closeness with my wife. Also, we experienced an oasis of acceptance, less expectations, true love and warmth... all during a visit with a family to which I am not blood related. On the face of the father/grandfather of this family was an expression of sheer contentment, fulfillment, and love. I long for that. I know that can only come if I truly rest in God, trusting him with my family, my wife, and my life...
So what shall I do next year? I am not sure... I want it to focus more on "love" as cheesy as that sounds. focus more on relationships, and helping those less fortunate... really less fortunate. I hope I can do something that will change someone's life forever. But I am not sure what that will look like or how it will happen. But it sounds amazing!
dngilb.
"if anything matters, then everything matters!" - William P. Young
Last Christmas I wrote a blog about "why I feel sad at Christmas"... (please reference it if this is news to you). So, this Christmas... "How'd things go?" you ask. Well, it seems that this year I had more to be sad about, but ended up feeling "less sad" than the year previous. What did I have more to be sad about? There were family relational strains, father in the hospital, my wife having health problems even on Christmas eve. I had plenty to be sad about. But there was less gift exchanging to require "faking a smile". There was a little less gluttony. I gave presents to the homeless (this topic needs a blog of its own). There were less expectations, less responsibility... more expectancy, more freedom, more closeness with my wife. Also, we experienced an oasis of acceptance, less expectations, true love and warmth... all during a visit with a family to which I am not blood related. On the face of the father/grandfather of this family was an expression of sheer contentment, fulfillment, and love. I long for that. I know that can only come if I truly rest in God, trusting him with my family, my wife, and my life...
So what shall I do next year? I am not sure... I want it to focus more on "love" as cheesy as that sounds. focus more on relationships, and helping those less fortunate... really less fortunate. I hope I can do something that will change someone's life forever. But I am not sure what that will look like or how it will happen. But it sounds amazing!
dngilb.
"if anything matters, then everything matters!" - William P. Young
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